Delight.

"When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.




Thanks, my delight.

Rationale ?

rationale [ˌræʃəˈnɑːl]

n

a reasoned exposition, esp one defining the fundamental reasons for a course of action, belief, etc.

[from New Latin, from Latin ratiōnālis]

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The first post in this blog has been made with a purpose in mind. It is made to make "you" think.

Posted at : 7/5/10, 12:16 PM.

There are things that we seek in life. Some of them are rare. Its a pity that sometimes those very things that we would give our life for, go unnoticed/undetected/unappreciated simply because of our inability to remain ourselves in the face of expectations. While all relationships are respectable and invaluable, convictions rank just a notch above all relations, simply since families are too scared to trust just big words in a world full of lies and fear.

It is only the addressee who can judge the honesty of a statement, particularly in such cases. If the decisions were pre-made, its okay; otherwise, it's been an absolute catastrophe. 

Published: July 12, 2010: 12:00 AM.

PS: It is not that I am after you. I would hate to hear that. 

My view is: "I lost a something....or maybe found something in you." .  And that thing seems like life.

And I know it is a little silly since I used to always see foolishness in romanticism....it is that rationality that just went out the window in a jiffy.


Something like: "Hum to hamesha, samajhte the koi hum jaisa haaji hi hoga...." fits too beautifully.

I can't believe that the it went to the extent where the feeling of helplessness and circumstances caused excessive watering of the eyes... All I have to say about the tears is this:


यहाँ सब लोग कहते है मेरी आँखों में आंसू है
जो तू समझे तो मोती है जो ना समझे तो पानी है

And as and when you do realize that I am the one, call me. There is a risk of my dying of happiness, but take the risk anyways.  ;)

I missed you today.

I remember, two years ago, today we exchanged greetings for the day.

I remember that day in happy spirits, and I remember you fondly. And I miss you. Just a bit, but I do.

I love you. Not the way I did a year ago, but a part of me will love you for life.

Jeena, aur ache se, khush jeena.... Baavya :)

I am something else now...someone else now.

And if you're reading this, we'll soon meet.

And you'll find a different Prakash Narayan Pandey, Bhavya. This person won't be mincing words. This guy won't be sorry, and he will mean business. This guy wont expect, but this guy will make you ask yourself questions you never would have.

Prepare well. Its not far.

You will want me

You long for love and fear love itself
You seek freedom and let the world chain you
You seek god and let petty conventions restrain you
You dont know me and think you do

You love an image, I know you do
That one would have color, have style and substance.
But well my love not know you do...
That I have all that and more for you

That I don't seek you is a lie even now
That I dont want you is a silly little untrue vow
But more than anything, what bothers me is the fact
That It seems that you lost the act !

You hide behind god, and behind false art
But one day, the lies will fall apart
And then you'll see, the world is just a little game
And if you don't value love, soon; it'll be time to depart

Tell me when you find him

You are here to please god: Arre pagal what if it does not exist ?

Chalo maan liya ek baar ki hai bhagwan....but he is there in each of us...and you wont have people taking avatar for loving you... it will be someone like me only....only thing is that you may not even have the chance to take your time and decide one day......and you would be married off.

Anyways..... love :) .

बैगन का भर्ता

जब मैं बैगन का भर्ता खाता हूं


तो तुम मुझे याद आती हो


जब मैं जग में पानी भरता हूँ


तो भी दिमाग खराब कर जाती हो हो


इसलिए मैंने भर्ता खाना छॉड.दिया है


सीधे नल से पानी पीना मुश्किल है मगर






जब कभी Delhi 6के गाने सुनता हूँ


वर्तमान में अतीत को ना जाने क्यों दोबारा बुनता हूँ


ना जाने क्यूं मुक्ति के आगे असामान्यता चुनता हूं


अपनी ही भावनाओं को समझना मुश्किल है मगर






जब मैं प्रस्तुतीकरण की तैयारी कर रहा होता हूं


कहीं "Add shapes" में एक आकॄति ढूंढता हूं


न पाता हूं कुछ, न ही खोता हूं


अभी भी घोड़े बेचकर सोता हूं


धुंधले सपनों को संजोना ज़रा मुश्किल है मगर






कभी Mordern art को निगाहों से टटोलता हूं


उन आकॄतियों में मुक्ति की संभावना तोलता हूं


वो बारिश थी, फेवीकोल था, या थी मॄगमरीचिका


न समझ पाता हूं, तो बस डोलता हूं


मन का ठहर जाना, ज़रा मुश्किल है मगर






^^ Just the by product of a contemplative hour that I lived........ Could not finish the stupid thing ...... may do that sometime.....may not ... :-) ...Refinements are obvisouly needed as well.

And you keep at it

I have met people. . . some who know you.....some who do not... and they've wondered what I saw in an otherwise seemingly ordinary girl to get so crazy about you. The girls have told me how jealous they were of you and how awesome this was that I was just so in love. More than just a few have said that I have rekindled their faith in true love. Some actually fell in love with me, it seems.

However, my personal sentiments have been messed up like anything. I seemed to have forgotten what it felt like ........ Way to go my love, you seemed to have succeeded in killing the most tender feeling of my life..... so lovely of you...........just know that if it comes to listening to "god"....one must not forget that "god" communicates every moment a person talks to you. And he said he loved you when I tell you that..... you just could not see it.

Tum nhi samjhogi Baavya.......... and I wish it was okay but it is not.

Dreams are getting eerie

I saw you seeking something from god in my dream today....... and god turned around and started telling me...."Look at her...silly girl.. she can't accept that I do not exist". ...

I was totally flummoxed...did not know what to interpret this as....just posting all that I can recall.


I hope you had not expectations outstanding from the biggest illusion ever created.

What you might want to consider

What will hold you true to your path is your love for the truth, that you are not pushing along merely because you have taken the first step, or have decided upon a certain course of action, but also for the reason that you want to know what is the truth,You make up your own mind first to see if that it was, then rejoice if it is, but if not, accept the truth whole heartedly and try again with greater knowledge and stronger faith.