---OH (Chemical symbol for the alcoholic group.)

I frankly dont have much to write home. Am a little happy and sad today. I drank yesterday .... and drank badly at that. Never before did I do so. And I was told I was talking to you while drunk ... it was ridiculous. Everyone was asking me who you were .... I had to just fend them off by saying that it is a long story.

I can not exactly say that I became a drinker because of you but I certainly felt so happy after so much time....that kid woke up. So much out of chemicals that dull the senses...... it is actually amazing.

I think.

And the thoughts make me conclude that thinking is not such a wonderful thing after all. It may give momentary happiness but the sadness is permanent when it comes.

Another of those stories?

At the moment it is one of the classical stories where the guy does not know what hit him. I am pretty sure this blog would not have existed had it not been for your decision (was it yours?) not to talk.

Anyways, what is is. I can not be what I am not, I will not do what my heart does not approve of, although I may not do what my heart tells me because it would hurt you.

If love is sacrifice, I shall make it so long as I can convince myself....but there is a threshold, and I am only human.


Anyways, I got through two major interviews today, and have another call.... So much money on offer...so many girls in the world to choose from, but what makes me seek you beats my logical mind. It's crazy !

No two ways now.

It will probably get ugly before it ends, but thats the only way now. When in a corner, every living creature retaliates. Only thing is, I will try to be as civil as I can be. I am not "god" anyways.


Or maybe, just maybe; instead of getting ugly, it will get beautiful.

Cometh the hour, again.

My wounds are less painful now but questions are still unanswered. I think it is time to seek some answers now.

Ziddi to hain aap.

I appreciate the fact that you're stubborn enough to follow through with the apparent "oath" that you seemed to have taken (except the one exception) .

I am awed to see that kind of resolve, since I had twice thought of letting you go, but this longing got the better of me each time. I am so much in love, you see.

I am even aware that you may not even be reading this crap blog at all ....but hope is so audacious.

Anyways, I dreamed of you today too....and we were talking.....walking together on the beach....I never looked towards you .....and after a long time, when I did look towards you, you did not have a face.....it was dark black...I was horrified and woke up. Whatever it means, I just wanted to say that I love you.

Friendship Day .

Somebody once said:

"Love is friendship set on fire" .

That somebody was Jeremy Taylor.

A very happy friendship day to you. May you have a beautiful time ..and find the vision that I want you to. :)

Why o' chaos ?

Why did not the chaos of the universe make me with better looks ? I see no other reason but that . :( .]

Only thing is I never thought she is that superficial....I still do not.

Persistance is not adamance.

I know the most amazing thing for you would be that how could something in you be so great.............. that it has had me feel like you're my life for almost an year now...... I just hope you someday feel the same about someone the way I feel today for yo...and only then will you understand that I deserved better treatment, and if I did not really love you completely unconditionally, I would have stopped following up long long ago.

I persist because I can't turn the switch to the "off" state.  :) And that is because there is no such switch at all.

Girls . . :)

You, I love ...and you can't EVEN RESPOND ? .... Maybe you really can't understand. But it's a tragedy if you can.

I have a strong intuitive sense..... and I've learned to trust my intuitions ...(the risk of being wrong has to be taken sometimes.)

Love can not be demanded, but it can be born...........except in case of exceptions, which I trust you are not.

If you however are, I might be half past doomed  :)