What you might want to consider

What will hold you true to your path is your love for the truth, that you are not pushing along merely because you have taken the first step, or have decided upon a certain course of action, but also for the reason that you want to know what is the truth,You make up your own mind first to see if that it was, then rejoice if it is, but if not, accept the truth whole heartedly and try again with greater knowledge and stronger faith.

Love, virtually

I just hold true to one thing in hindsight......and I am pretty sure that I've not loved anything or one as much as I loved you.

And I have to have clarity ........

Each of these things held true.

Some answers are coming....maybe :)

Right now.......I am in the same situation, it seems........ I know that this silly girl is so falling in love with me........ almost exactly like I fell for you.......but I seem to be too heartbroken........additionally I cant feel it for her........ amazingly, despite this craving for love, I don't even want to. Attraction is not a choice, that is something that I know from my studies in human psychology. However, I think I was stupid to not induce love the way I know it can be induced into people.........just that I had to stay on in Ludhiana. Anyways........ Best I can do is to bug you a bit by coming to your continent.

I would not be loving you for sure if you're not who I think you are......so you could have rested assured anyways..........hope you're having a wonderful time wherever you are.

I am what I love

Because it wasn't about you.  It was mine, that love.  I owned it... I am what I love, not what loves me.


I am you....... not an issue if you are not me. But remember, you had a choice. A choice between love and I dont know what . You made your move....I hope the move was in line with your heart and soul.


Be happy. 


:) .


Cheers !

एक दिने जब सवेरे सवेरे

एक दिने जब सवेरे सवेरे, सुरमई की चादर हटा कर

एक परबत के तकिये से , सूरज ने सर जो उठाया, तोह देखा

दिल की वादी में चाहत का मौसम है

और यादों की डालियों पर

अनगिनत बीते लम्हों की कलियाँ महेकने लगी है

अनकही अनसुनी आरजू, आधी सोयी हवी आधी जागी हवी

आंखें मलते हुवे देखती है, लहर डर लहर

मौज डर मौज, बहती हवी ज़िंदगी

जैसे हर एक पल नई है, और फिर भी वही, हाँ, वही ज़िंदगी

जिसके दामन में एक मोहब्बत भी है, कोई हसरत भी है

पास आना भी है, दूर जाना भी है, और ये एहसास है

वक्त झरने सा बहता हुवा, जा रहा है, यह कहता हुवा

दिल की वादी में चाहत का मौसम है

और यादों की डालियों पर

अनगिनत बीते लम्हों की कलियाँ मेहेकने लगी हैं

It was a "friend"

A friend I trusted. I trusted him like anything. So much so that I decided to go "naked" in front of him by telling him about my deepest of emotions and feelings. I chose to lay bare in front of him, the silliest of thought and the tenderest of sentiments that I had developed. I found him to be a close confidante of mine and being in the emotionally charged up state of mind that I was, I told him the link to the blog.I told him that I had been blogging about my sentiments and experiences that I have had associated with yourself, my love.

However, this "friend" apparently did not care enough.

One, all the close friends of him and his room partner (both subscribers to the blog) came to know of it.

Secondly, one girl, a common friend of "her" and this friend was told of this blog by him. She was close enough to go directly to you my love and tell this to you, but if I can assure you, trust me when I say that I did not intend for you to read this blog till then.

I knew what that would have meant to you and how It would have impacted your psyche....it is just that the emotions just made me fly for a short while...I had lost track of life, of time..... of myself....and when It all just seemed to go away, my heart got the better of me.

My sentiments and emotions made me do what I would have otherwise never done. I went ahead and mailed about 6 people about this blog.

I hardly received any acolades from anyone, however you had your bits to say. . . . . did you not.

Just be at peace, not like myself...............love.

Blessings and reminiscences.

On your last birthday, I remember having said that it would not be difficult to remember the other person's birthdays for each of us. For me its still a day I've been conscious of for a week. Its just that love is quite an emotion to contend with.

I just hope you celebrate today with the happiest of emotions. May your life be as bright and cheerful as it gets.

Talking about Diwali.

It is the festival of lights, and I am happy to see the flashes and the colors. I am in love with the world again, I am even finding the other girls to be beautiful after some time….and soon you may become a lost memory. But I would have loved to have my first love fulfilled.
Today is probably however the most unique Diwali’s of my life. I would not be home, and I did it on purpose. I would not want to be home sitting quietly on a Diwali. Its not that I am sad anymore. I am Just a little less than happy.

Hope you find your happiness somewhere down there.
With Love,
Einstein