You will want me

You long for love and fear love itself
You seek freedom and let the world chain you
You seek god and let petty conventions restrain you
You dont know me and think you do

You love an image, I know you do
That one would have color, have style and substance.
But well my love not know you do...
That I have all that and more for you

That I don't seek you is a lie even now
That I dont want you is a silly little untrue vow
But more than anything, what bothers me is the fact
That It seems that you lost the act !

You hide behind god, and behind false art
But one day, the lies will fall apart
And then you'll see, the world is just a little game
And if you don't value love, soon; it'll be time to depart

Tell me when you find him

You are here to please god: Arre pagal what if it does not exist ?

Chalo maan liya ek baar ki hai bhagwan....but he is there in each of us...and you wont have people taking avatar for loving you... it will be someone like me only....only thing is that you may not even have the chance to take your time and decide one day......and you would be married off.

Anyways..... love :) .

बैगन का भर्ता

जब मैं बैगन का भर्ता खाता हूं


तो तुम मुझे याद आती हो


जब मैं जग में पानी भरता हूँ


तो भी दिमाग खराब कर जाती हो हो


इसलिए मैंने भर्ता खाना छॉड.दिया है


सीधे नल से पानी पीना मुश्किल है मगर






जब कभी Delhi 6के गाने सुनता हूँ


वर्तमान में अतीत को ना जाने क्यों दोबारा बुनता हूँ


ना जाने क्यूं मुक्ति के आगे असामान्यता चुनता हूं


अपनी ही भावनाओं को समझना मुश्किल है मगर






जब मैं प्रस्तुतीकरण की तैयारी कर रहा होता हूं


कहीं "Add shapes" में एक आकॄति ढूंढता हूं


न पाता हूं कुछ, न ही खोता हूं


अभी भी घोड़े बेचकर सोता हूं


धुंधले सपनों को संजोना ज़रा मुश्किल है मगर






कभी Mordern art को निगाहों से टटोलता हूं


उन आकॄतियों में मुक्ति की संभावना तोलता हूं


वो बारिश थी, फेवीकोल था, या थी मॄगमरीचिका


न समझ पाता हूं, तो बस डोलता हूं


मन का ठहर जाना, ज़रा मुश्किल है मगर






^^ Just the by product of a contemplative hour that I lived........ Could not finish the stupid thing ...... may do that sometime.....may not ... :-) ...Refinements are obvisouly needed as well.

And you keep at it

I have met people. . . some who know you.....some who do not... and they've wondered what I saw in an otherwise seemingly ordinary girl to get so crazy about you. The girls have told me how jealous they were of you and how awesome this was that I was just so in love. More than just a few have said that I have rekindled their faith in true love. Some actually fell in love with me, it seems.

However, my personal sentiments have been messed up like anything. I seemed to have forgotten what it felt like ........ Way to go my love, you seemed to have succeeded in killing the most tender feeling of my life..... so lovely of you...........just know that if it comes to listening to "god"....one must not forget that "god" communicates every moment a person talks to you. And he said he loved you when I tell you that..... you just could not see it.

Tum nhi samjhogi Baavya.......... and I wish it was okay but it is not.

Dreams are getting eerie

I saw you seeking something from god in my dream today....... and god turned around and started telling me...."Look at her...silly girl.. she can't accept that I do not exist". ...

I was totally flummoxed...did not know what to interpret this as....just posting all that I can recall.


I hope you had not expectations outstanding from the biggest illusion ever created.