Sillified.

There are these girls .......some of them quite beautiful......some just hot.........some witty .........I have opened up enough to them and I somehow seem to be interesting to them........... I seem to be good at getting them to talk for sure......and yet nothing seems to make sense.

When it comes to the idea of trying to think of love, of being with one of them for my life, my indoctrination makes me think of this one girl..........of you silly.

And I would just go silent.

Silence teaches many things ...... I never knew that till I loved you. And the silly thing is that maybe I did not even love you.....maybe it was just an imagination of who you were (As you have said) but well, I am in this silly condition nonetheless.

Wonder if anyone (you) reads this blog anymore or not.

However, work wise, I am considering quitting on my company post the completion of my analyst program and going for the IAS exam.

Lets see how it goes. For now, mergers and acquisitions hold the key. Got to study but I am too silly to study now I guess. What say ?

Is it such a big deal really ?

It really is not...but for the emotions. And they strangely were just on my side. So I must own up responsibility for this mess. And I do.

I continue to have a few questions which I would have to wait with for a few decades now for sure. It should not have been so difficult though but anyways I hope I can someday get to have a life beyond you. Free of any imaginations that I might have conjured up.