Post my "thing" with you, I really became belligerent with girls...I would not even look at a girl like "that" because of my stupid moral upbringing. And somehow it turned me into something that a lot of girls seem to like a lot. There are about 6 girls who would seem to be eager to date me but I feel this pain at the soul level it seems. Its almost as if I am cheating her if I go out with her since my heart loves you. I can not stand that feeling Baa ..... so I stand here, a little wounded, but ready to take the world on.
I stand waiting for you to show up one day and for us to be into a friendship that would last a lifetime, but would probably not marry you. Just because my sentiments have been hurt somehow. Somehow even you could not care to understand just the simple fact that being in love makes us imagine spontaneously...and if I did so, why could it not be treated compassionately.
I still give you the benefit of doubt based on the fact that you might have been told to do a few things, but you are an adult with free will, If I can chose not to try to be manipulative to get your love, I feel I deserve to expect free thinking from your end too.
If someone loves you, the last thing to do is to run away. Maybe its okay to do so if the guy wants to get you ...but I just love you. just love you.
I hope Australia is all hale and hearty for you. (Its my presumption.) Dont feel alone and may you be loved like you deserve to be.
PS: I love you.
