I want to die today.

Just got up

Feeling Bad

Feeling like I am redundant.

What good is financial analytics

What use is money

What purpose is there in earning ?

What reason is there for my anguish.

What makes me remember people every morning when I wake up?

Words are all I had....and have.

One day, far from the forlorn present
The judjement day shall itself, present
When their opinions would not matter,
All the worldly delusions in shatter

I hope that then, you do not resent
What you did do, for your own reason
For what my heart has in here for you
Is just true love, & that ain't no treason

Love you shall find, and have a life,
With beauty, truth and happiness, rife
May you be happy; not like me, strive
I am probably the monkey with a knife

Alas ! this monkey thinks, and feels and has a brain
and sad he maybe for it all, When he feels all the pain
However he will smile along; while walking in the rain
He'll not let the tears well up; when soul feels the drain.

What has been my heart's loss, may it be your gain;
May you reach you destination, rise up the corporate chain
May you know what life is worth and what is worth the drain
But yes this is the truth my love, I may not love again

You know you know and yet your "no" ;
How would I understand
Than What I've held for you my love;
 There is no other thing more grand.

One day, O' lord make our eyes meet;
Even if I'm 70, having lived my life; complete;
I would still have from her one last wish;
On her forehead; just one loving kiss.